Monday, April 02, 2012

COMINGS & GOINGS, a Palm Sunday reflection

The Donkey -a poem by G.K. Chesterton




WHEN fishes flew and forests walked

And figs grew upon thorn,

Some moment when the moon was blood

Then surely I was born.



With monstrous head and sickening cry

And ears like errant wings,

The devil's walking parody

On all four-footed things.



The tattered outlaw of the earth,

Of ancient crooked will,

Starve, scourge, deride me I am dumb,

I keep my secret still.



Fools, for I also had my hour,

One far fierce hour and sweet,

There was a shout about my ears

And palms before my feet.





HOMILY





Story of St. Patrick



This characterization of Patrick is a good place to start. Like all myth, it has lost much of its subtlety and depth through oversimplification. What was once a multi-layered and complex story about the Irish people has become a buffoonish event which celebrates drunkenness and mayhem.




This is a talk about why people leave/return and why some, those we call prophets and saints, come to be. But it is also about each one of us.



Patrick’s legend is remarkably like the Palm Sunday story of Jesus’ re-entry, often called the Triumphal Entry, into Jerusalem, a city he had visited many times, and where he had celebrated Passover even as a child.



One feature of the story that provides endless fascination as well as illumination for me is the fact that, at least according to the gospel reports, Jesus specified a donkey as his mode of transportation. (Others say a colt). This could not have been accidental, whether the man known as Jesus or the writers of the gospels created it.



It would have been a symbolic statement, as well as a political one, as Marcus Borg writes “a virtual parody of the prevailing ideas of kingship.” Think anti-Popemobile! Peace v. War.



Donkeys had been excoriated as common, brutish, and inferior animals even by Jesus’ times. Like many prophets of our time and times past, they have been without honor, their braying lambasted, or at best tolerated.



Jesus was nothing if not a prophet. He came armed with truths and he came with the soul of a rebel who sought to overturn the established order, one he saw as built upon greed, power, and violence.



No less a prophet was Patrick in his times, whose greatest asset according to one writer, was love. Patrick “loved everything under the sun, the flowers, the birds, the clouds, the day, the night. And he loved the Irish people….”



Nor Martin Luther King, who said (now famously): If you want to say I was a drum major, say I was a drum major for peace. Say I was a drum major for justice.” His murdered body was brought back into Atlanta in a humble wooden cart.



Nor Wendell Berry, our Kentucky prophet who also “came back,” after fourteen years’ study and wandering, with both affection and loving judgment. He writes in Renewing Husbandry, “Perhaps because I was a returned traveler intending to stay, I now saw the place more clearly than before. I saw it critically too.”

None of these were received with a hero’s welcome, with the possible exception of Jesus, whose Sunday welcome didn’t last long and turned to crucifixion by Friday.

We comprehend the longing to leave home: be it for learning, expanding our horizons, for enlarging our perspective. Those who flee only to escape may never follow this well-trod path of exile and return. But many of us do.

Most of us deeply understand the longing to go home. We resonate with Scott Russell Sanders in Staying Put that humans have an instinct for home that he calls devotion: “I suspect that most human achievements worth admiring are the result of such devotion.”

DEVOTION… implies more than fondness or nostalgia. It implies that, once home, one will endeavor to bring what she has learned home, for good.

Berry is talking about both home and marriage when he writes: “Two human possibilities of the highest order come within reach: what one wants can become the same as what one has, and knowledge can cause respect for what one knows.”

Now, after fifty years of speaking to us through his fiction, poems, and essays, Wendell Berry is beginning to be heard, to be acknowledged, to be heeded (by other than sustainability nuts and UU ministers). Thus it ever has been with prophets. Those once seen as braying donkeys are finally heard, often long after they are gone. Berry will deliver the Jefferson Lecture in Washington DC’s Kennedy Center this month as the recipient of the Nation’s highest honor in the Humanities. “To our national disgrace, he has been a prophet without honor in his homeland.” (Rod Dreher) At least we didn’t kill him first before he saw his honor.

But you and I know that Wendell doesn’t care for or about honors and accolades any more than did King, or the apocryphal Patrick or Jesus. Some of these stories are fact, some are fiction, some are fantasy, but they are “true” whether they are factual or not. It is human nature to return. It is also human nature to want to improve, oneself and that which one loves. And it is human to refuse to hear the truth, though it be told us again and again. In the case of these four individuals the truth was based in love, devotion, justice and peace.



That ought to be enough for us to contemplate between Palm Sunday and Good Friday.

Saturday, March 24, 2012

February... In & Out


When on sabbatical, one ought to have both goals and an open questing spirit. There is a "way" into deeper understanding, just as there is a way "out" of our self-created miseries and petty fears.

But, if we hurry, or if we are too certain and determined, we hustle past a way we ought to have considered.





It is good to experience the new and unexplored, for in this we often find a viewpoint on our lives and our ministries that surprises and delights, sometimes inspires us.

But it is also grand to revisit places seen before. Here, the humble wooden cart that carried the slain body of Dr. King.




The old and the very old: Christ Church Cathedral, Dublin. Taken on Ash Wednesday, 2012. These cathedrals and ruins are testament to the human quest for the holy and the good, seeking both beyond the world and within the soul. It is no small endeavor, nor does it go away by being ignored.





Here, most of what one needs to find truth. 



This is my son, who is also my hero. He keeps working to find his path and he is following his dreams at last. Fishing off the Oregon coast in February is just one. To see him achieve this was monumental.



Spinoza.

It takes most of a lifetime and many false turns to see this....

And it can slip away unless carefully tended.



The Oregon Coast.



Innisfree has been a symbol of my dream for decades. It is a poem, a place, a notion, a fantasy, a vision of peace and harmony, sustainability and wholeness. It is a real place, in Ireland, an imaginary place, and the name of my farm in Washington County, Kentucky. It can never be fully realized, and that is why I love it!




It is also the name of this boat that my son encountered while following his dream. Serendipity and connection are in abundant supply. What is required is patience, discernment, and the willingness to be led rather than the willfulness that deludes us we are in charge.







Actor Mark Wahlberg:

I’m still appreciative of all the things that I’ve been able to do and the things I’ve been able to overcome and getting a second chance in this life is not something that comes easy, so I don’t want to do anything to mess it up,” he said. “People are always saying, ‘Just come out for one night.’ And I’m like: ‘For what? I’ve got everything I want.’ I’m so blessed and so fortunate. I start every day getting on my hands and knees, being grateful and working to do the right thing. If it all went away today, I’d be happy because of all of the things I got to experience and the things I’ve learned along the way.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Practice Makes IMperfect.... Week 15-ish of sabbatical


Well, I am counting down the weeks LEFT in my sabbatical now. Not altogether with trepidation, because I am actually feeling energized and ready to get back to work. I love almost everything about what I do and the people I do it with, especially the women who are my staff team. Sometimes I just marvel at how our church and I could be so blessed to have such a group of intelligent, compassionate, and courageous women serving us. They are beyond compare.
Replace Terese with Kate! We need a new Staff photo...




It's a bit like getting to what you think might be the halfway point in life, passing the middle of one's sabbatical. I make a bucket list: what had I hoped to accomplish that I haven't yet done? My goals were a bit ambitious. I will not be going to Haiti, not now, but I have made several solid contacts for a future trip. I didn't work on Mountain Top Removal, as I had hoped to. Part way into the time, I realized that the sabbatical needed to be a little more inwardly focused, so I put the service and advocacy dreams on the back burner.

There will always be social justice work to do...

I did renew my primary spiritual practice, which is Buddhist meditation, and, most importantly, found a potential sangha with which to share this important part of my life... there are days when I think that if that were all I had accomplished, it would be enough! I feel very blessed to have found a great teacher and a place to learn and practice not far from home.


This is actually Ireland, not Kentucky.

What happens with a regular meditation practice differs with each individual, of course, but I think it is safe to say that with regular and diligent practice, destructive habit energy is minimized and positive ways of approaching life and its challenges gradually emerge. For me, that means I become less perfectionist and more accepting of imperfection (aka being human), my own as well as others'. I find that I am more tolerant, patient, and content. I notice that many times my thoughts of discouragement, worry, anxiety, or fear can be easily transformed into gratitude and even delight.


Eric, Cyn, Marjorie, Colin & Seth at Mar's HS graduation.

For example, it's not easy living in a small modular home this muddy and rainy winter with FIVE people (during the month Marjorie was home) and two indoor animals. But I have so much to be grateful for. My children love each other unconditionally.
Seth & Marjorie

Seth has so many people who adore and care for him. His life, which may very well have turned out quite differently, is full of people, extended family and caregivers and teachers who cherish him for who he is. I can't say enough about the school he attends, North Washington County Elementary! (If you click here, http://www.washington.kyschools.us/nwes/default.htm, you will see his Principal kissing a pig which is held by the Asst. Principal.) I couldn't have asked for a group of people who are more nurturing, patient, and giving. I feel that my life has come full circle, and my youngest child will be blessed with the same small town, K-8 country school atmosphere that I grew up in. Beyond compare!


Some of the UUCL Worship Associates!

I am also grateful for the amazing Worship Team and all of the Board and Leadership at UUCL who have carried on with such incredible efficiency and perseverance so that I can enjoy this respite. Toni O' Neil! .. and everyone who is working hard to keep the momentum going.




I regularly thank the universe for my good husband, who is really enamored with our Seth, and puts a huge amount of energy into his care, for my daughter Marjorie, who is out there taking life by the horns with courage and grit, and, I must admit most of all, for my sons, who have given me the greatest gift I could ever receive, and one I had almost given up on, their sobriety. I know we are all blessed far beyond anything we deserve. Who needs perfection? Life is very, very good.

Casey with his friends, the incomparable Jennifer & Joan, and the birdhouse he made them for Xmas.


See you all soon!